Four years ago I ranted in a semi-coherent manner regarding the election results. Today I slept more than I did last year, I’m reassured by my country, and I’m proud to have voted. I’m still worried about the future my children may inherit but I’m hopeful, which is more than I could say four years ago.

-Jon

I was going to write about my lost sense of whimsy and my all-grown-up life. I’ve decided not to. Partly because it was getting depressing, but mostly because it was really bad writing. I just feel like I’m loosing a part of myself that I have always really loved, while at the same time I’m growing up and learning how to balance my checkbook and pay bills on time. It’s weird that to gain one, I seem to be loosing the other. And damn it, I don’t think that I have to.

I’m going to work on being less stressful, worried, and morose and I’m going to try to get back to some of the things that I really love (read: video games and being goofy in public). Hopefully working on that will help my writing here, because I’ve also really lost the whole desire to post about my life. Things are happening, but they always have to do with work and I don’t like writing about the stupid questions I get or the silly directives from above. So… anyways, that’s the short version.

-Jon

Not gonna talk about stuff going on. Gonna instead mention that I’ve managed to do absolutely nothing of what I meant to get done this morning. Literally nothing. It’s alright though. I’ve got tonight, tomorrow. I’ll get stuff done. Just had to take a minute.

-Jon

I’d been on a pretty good roll of keeping something posted on here most every day for a while. Then I failed. Fell off the wagon… whatever. There are many things that seem to have fallen into that category. Things I used to do a lot. Video games, the bar, playing music, writing, whatever. Seems that life has taken priority to being creative and playing video games. That’s something that I would like to change, however.

I read about a columnist for some newspaper that is going to go screenless one night a week, every week for a whole year. Screenless being no movies, tvs, cell phones, computers, pagers, or anything else with a screen. Taking that time to instead read, or write (on paper) or spend time with friends and family. I like that idea, and while I’ll probably not be able to get myself to that level of screen abstention I’m gonna try, every once in a while, to spend more time for my friends and family (and dog), and less time for work and sleep. Because, I’ll always be able to find more work or sleep later, right?

-Jon

I was going to write a post about how the upgrade of the back end of the site has broken some stuff. But I don’t wanna do that anymore. What I want to do is get my mojo back. I’ve been in a interfunk for a while now, and I can’t seem to find my passion for the site anymore. I’m going to get back into this stuff a little. I’ll get the site working, but… well… Today, I just don’t care. I’m going to stop writing for a few days, stop forcing myself to just vomit text onto the series of tubes that our internet has become.

I’m not, however, going to give up. I just need to find that thing that made me give a shit about writing here. I’ll get there. And maybe I’ll get back to writing with a purpose. One can hope, eh?

-Jon

Today is not a good day.

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I think that’s a song title. Wait. Lemme check so I know. Yup. It’s a song. Anyways, here I sit, on my couch, listening to The Duffy Bishop Band… no, seriously. The Duffy Bishop Band. They’re great. Blues sung by a whiskey-voiced woman. Seriously cool shit. Anyways…

I haven’t been writing much lately, and I think I just figured out why. I’ve been having way too much fun, being way too happy, and generally haven’t been in the mood to get online and bitch like I once might have. Hell, I’m hardly ever online. I’ve talked to people before who say, “I just don’t have time to keep up a website” (I’m looking at you London-Boy), and I’ve never believed them. At all. I still don’t. It’s not that there isn’t time, it’s just (for me) I just don’t even think of it. Of course, I want to keep this thang going, so here I am.

My dog is currently asleep with her head on my leg. Seriously I don’t care about how many times she dumps in the house, her constant whining, or her eating of inappropriate things (like… horizontal blinds), because when she’s being adorable there’s only one thing I can think of that makes me happier. And I’m not quite sappy enough to talk about that in this context. But, seriously, if you’ve never had a dog sleep next to you while you just, you know, go about your business, then you just haven’t lived.

I’ve been roller blading with the beast too, which is fun, because sometimes she pulls me and I just have to imagine the visual of my 20lb dog pulling… well… my mountainous self. Heh…

I’ve also begun playing some online poker again. Which is nice. But, mostly I’ve been just… doing my thang… keeping up with dishes and laundry, enjoying my life. Weird eh? So, my thought is that I’m going to try to come up with things I want to write about and actually keep this site going, because I’ve been way too lax about it ever since I got all into a relationship and stuff. So, that’s the idea. I’m also probably going to try to get my recording rig set back up so I can post some of that stuff too. We’ll see how long that takes, but, I’m gonna work on it.

Peace out folks.

-Jon